“The present moment holds the key to liberation.” – Eckhart Tolle

I read an article recently about how when we stop longing for something to happen, that’s when it usually does happen.  I was instantly reminded of when my husband and I were trying to get pregnant with our first child.  We had been trying for almost two years with no success.  The only thing I knew in my heart I always wanted more than anything else in my life was to be a mother, and the fact that it wasn’t happening, and with no apparent physical explanation, was frustrating, disappointing, confusing, and truly heartbreaking.  To make matters worse, it seemed that practically every week brought the announcement of another friend who was blissfully (and easily!) pregnant.  I remember trying to remain positive and share genuine happiness and joy over their news, but at the same time fighting back tears because it wasn’t me.  Our lives had been “reduced” to counting days on the calendar, tracking my temperature, “mandatory” conception attempts, and one disappointing pregnancy test after another.  I was stressed beyond belief, and I finally decided I’d had enough.  I needed a break from the entire process!

Coincidentally, I made the decision to take a break from it all on the last day of a vacation my husband and I were on.  Without realizing it, I had dropped the weight of the world off my shoulders for a moment, and allowed for the first bit of spontaneity in a very long time.  That was all it took – we were instantly pregnant!

Looking back, I think what really occurred was that I had previously allowed myself to sink into a victim-level energy and its accompanying way of thinking – Why me?  Why was everyone else getting pregnant and not us?  What was wrong with me?  Maybe I didn’t deserve it for some reason?  All of my thoughts were focused on lack and my inability to have what I wanted so badly.  I then made the conscious choice to no longer live as a victim of my circumstances, and in doing so, I stopped chasing so desperately after something I was lacking as a piece that would complete me.  Literally, almost at the moment I decided to let it go and just accept and enjoy what was, I was delivered the gift I had been seeking.  By living in and embracing the moment, rather than chasing after something in my future to complete me, I shifted my energy and regained the power to live my life, instead of waiting for my life to happen to me – that made all the difference!